The mind of a toddler is fascinating (and confusing at times), we go on a family holiday and drive 700 km’s to get there, only to find out that she was happier at home. Frustrating right? Well this is only one of the many interesting things about my toddler that I dont understand. The total amazement she shows when pushing anything around (chairs, boxes, magazines, you name it), her relentless interest in my phone, the remotes and with going outside (sertiously, it is like she has a sixth sense and just knows when a door opens somehwere) and her latest favoroute; our bedside table drawers (yes condoms and underwear have ended up on our lawn). It is such a busy time, and we are both learning how to adjust to all the new changes, and I would not change it for the world.
She can honestly be happy when I give her a spoon and a bowl to play with, she will entertain herself for an hour on the kitchen floor, and only she knows what goes on in that pretty little head of hers, and that made me think, if only I can be so content with something so simple (I am a classic overthinker and busybody, I need constant distraction to stay sane lol), Dont get me wrong, she is still a toddler and just like the smallest thing can make her happy, the smallest thing can also mean the end of the world the very next minute. But for the sake of this post, we will focus on the “happy part” haha.
Giving my full attention to a situation has always been a struggle, it feels like my mind is always in a million different places at the same time, quieting my mind has always been a challenge, and something that I still struggle with somedays, the only thing that has seemed to keep my attention has been motherhood. My little girl really does take all my attention, not just because she is so busy and I am in constant fear of her getting hurt, I am mesmerized by her, by how she approaches life and lives on the edge so to speak, no fear whatsoever and just explores and enjoys every single new thing. While we as adults mostly avoid new things because it means stepping out of our comfort zones (and why would you do that if you are not in your early 20’s anymore right?), living on the edge is no longer possible because you have responsibilities and people who rely on you. Growing up is for sure a trap haha, when you are little it looks so amazing to be able to do what you want and when you want to; meanwhile we dont see the writing on the wall when we are little; Being an adult is tedious at best.
My little girl for one wakes up with a smile on her face, while I take about half an hour and two cups of coffee before I can have a conversation, she runs up and down the house non stop, while I am out of breath running after her ONCE, she claps hands whenever she gets excited, while I smile and then focus on the next thing wihtout enjoying the moment for what it is. Growing up has somehow made me forget how to appreciate the little things, and how to find happiness in the small stuff, the everyday little victories that we take for granted. Being thankful and joyful is something that not everyone is luky enough to experince, so I say; If you are happy and you know it clap your hands !!