Freedom | Alone At Long Last

So yesterday I left my baby with my mother in law and my husband , and went to town to do my nails and get a few things for the house all by myself for the very first time.

All I can say is WOW ! Although it was quite sad and made me nervous to leave her , it did me the world of good to be by-myself a little bit .

I realized that it really is a necessity to take a break , we live in a rural area and babysitting (unless it is in laws) is not an option , although I am very blessed to be able to look after my baby myself , it does get to me to not do anything else and to not see other adults .

I had a nice few hours in town , and when I came back I could handle her teething and everything else , and it made me so jealous of other moms that get to work , even half day , I do go into the lodge everyday , but I take her with , and only spend about an hour there before she lets me know its time to leave πŸ™ˆ

Thats why I think these little breaks are so important – absence makes the heart grow fonder , just a little reboot so to speak , just so you can appreciate everything again !

Heres to many more little breaks πŸŽ‰

Angelique

Today is a Good Day to Have a Good Day

So about 3 weeks ago , we started sleep regression …… if you read my posts there were A LOT about it hahaha

My husband and I even started to question literally everything we have been doing , all our methods , we even got into a few fights over it because it felt like he was telling me that everything I do with her was wrong , needless to say , it was a tough time for us !

Well ….. it passed !!!!

She has honestly been the best baby in the world the past 5 days ! It has been amazing , she sleeps , she plays , she eats , she smiles , she laughs , she even rolled over today for the first time !

What a relief ! I can honestly say , that every mom going through this must just hang in there , don’t go and change your routine to adapt to it , because it does blow over I promise.

Yay for Paige ! πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ€£

Angelique

You Are Spoiling Your Baby

So I am sure I am not the only one who has a grandmother in law that yells “you are spoiling her” whenever she sees my husband pushing Paige in the pram to sleep …. 🀣

In all honesty though this makes me so mad , for so many reasons; first , at this stage I will do WHATEVER it takes to get her to sleep, whether that means I must stand on my head humming a lullaby , so be it !

Second of all , I don’t believe that I can shower my baby with too much of anything quite frankly , she is only starting to see all the colors now , I mean , she does not understand why I am leaving her when she cries or why I don’t want to console her . Just thinking about this breaks my heart .

I will most probably be the strict parent between me and my husband , but at the appropriate age where she can learn right from wrong and understand consequences.

I honestly think this “spoiling ” thing is from the older generation , they all say and do it ….

At the end of the day , I would just prefer people disagreeing with my parenting in private , to their friends and husbands behind my back, like normal people 🀣

Cause quite frankly , its none of your business !

Angelique

Baby Sense

So in South Africa , a book was published called “baby sense”; this book basically discusses stimulation and overstimulation in babies and what not to do.

The book revolves around specific allowed awake times for each age , as well as the usual dark room, limited playtime, and the “put your baby to sleep drowsy but awake”.

Although this book has helped a lot with establishing sleep patterns , Paige is 4 months old now , and according to the book she is only allowed to stay awake for 90 minutes between naps.

HAHA …. that just does not work for her , she sometimes stays awake for 2 hours or only half an hour between naps , and I have tried EVERYTHING to try and stick to that 90 minutes .

This to me just proves once again that every baby is different and every mom is different, and what works for the one does not work for the other one .

This is especially confusing for new mothers , because we tend to take any advice where we can to prepare ourselves and when it doesn’t work; we immediately think that it must be us that is doing something wrong.

Don’t get me wrong , I still do everything I read and ask what other mothers did , but I guess what changed for me was that; if it didn’t work , I knew it wasn’t something I am doing wrong or that I am failing as a mother , my baby is just different πŸ‘ŒπŸ»

I find it amazing how mothers tend to stick together , you can go up to a mother in a supermarket and ask her something and she will just be so helpful and give advice freely ! I find this new community I am apart of amazing ! πŸ’œ

So to all the mommies out there struggling , keep on keeping on !

Angelique

5 minutes |The Parent Time Zone

Don’t you just see time differently since you’ve become a parent ?

5 minutes used to be just that , now however , if my baby cries for 5 minutes it feels like FOREVER ! When I have been rocking her for 5 minutes and she is still not asleep , it feels like its been hours !

On the other hand , becoming a mother also makes you appreciate time more , you had to wait to get pregnant , you had to wait 9 months to meet your baby .

My baby is only 15 weeks old , 15 weeks in my life used to fly by , now , I cant imagine a time that she wasn’t here , 15 weeks feels like the largest chunk of my life , and the most important !

I find myself thinking; what did I do with all my time before Paige was born ? 😜

Angelique

Hugs And Kisses

I stuggle with affection, this is a very hard topic as it is somewhat personal.

I studied psychology and yet I cant tell you why i struggle be to affectionate towards my husband , or other people for that matter . And as luck would have it , I married someone who shows love through physical affection and needs it in return .

This has taught be a lot and I am much better than I used to be , but it is still hard sometimes , don’t get me wrong , I also like a hug every now and then , and a kiss and all the rest . I just don’t like the incessant hand holding and cuddling .

It honestly feels like I cant breathe when someone is in my personal space the whole time .

Weirdly enough I honestly struggled being pregnant , it felt like the baby was on top of me (which she was haha) but I got used to it and even ended up enjoying it towards the end (I don’t miss it though haha)

Since becoming a mother I have been feeling quite insecure about this, and I have been scared to pass it on to my child , I was scared that I don’t show enough affection towards her because I don’t know how much she would need to feel safe and secure and loved if that makes sense .

I now shower her with so much love and affection , just to be sure she has enough , haha , she will probably end up being the biggest mommies girl in the world ! 😍

I guess what I am trying to say is that we grow , we see and admit our shortcomings the older we get and work on them , changing is not seen as a negative thing but somewhat of a necessity to be a good mother .

My baby girl is only 15 weeks old and motherhood has changed me so much already , for the better ! πŸ‘ŒπŸ»

Ps. Picture of my baby girl ! I mean , how can you not cuddle that face ? 😜😘