Freedom | Alone At Long Last

So yesterday I left my baby with my mother in law and my husband , and went to town to do my nails and get a few things for the house all by myself for the very first time.

All I can say is WOW ! Although it was quite sad and made me nervous to leave her , it did me the world of good to be by-myself a little bit .

I realized that it really is a necessity to take a break , we live in a rural area and babysitting (unless it is in laws) is not an option , although I am very blessed to be able to look after my baby myself , it does get to me to not do anything else and to not see other adults .

I had a nice few hours in town , and when I came back I could handle her teething and everything else , and it made me so jealous of other moms that get to work , even half day , I do go into the lodge everyday , but I take her with , and only spend about an hour there before she lets me know its time to leave 🙈

Thats why I think these little breaks are so important – absence makes the heart grow fonder , just a little reboot so to speak , just so you can appreciate everything again !

Heres to many more little breaks 🎉

Angelique

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Lets Have That Food Talk …

Solids , am I right !?

The internet is the devil , and so are mom groups and all parenting books out there ! 🤪

It all is just so confusing , the one site contradicts the other one , they one book says this , the other one says the EXACT opposite , the one mom says solids before 6 months , the other one says hell no ! 🤣

I am almost scared to post a question on one of these groups , because I know it will be flooded with comments and all being different , as a first time mom this is just a nightmare , and makes you even more stressed than you were before the post !

My baby girl is 4 months old now , and I am a first time mom , and the whole “follow your instincts ” thing only goes so far if its your first baby (well for me anyway)My experience so far is to make a mom friend , either a new mom just like you (which in my case helped because we had the same anxiety over the same things and you don’t feel so alone) or an experienced one who’s opinions and advice you trust

One thing I must say is that moms everywhere are so eager to help , it has been an amazing experience so far !

So whether you fed your baby for the fist time at 4 months or 6 months , or dis co sleeping, breastfed or bottle fed your baby , as long as he/she is still alive and mostly happy I would say well done ! Being a mom is hard !Angelique

Today is a Good Day to Have a Good Day

So about 3 weeks ago , we started sleep regression …… if you read my posts there were A LOT about it hahaha

My husband and I even started to question literally everything we have been doing , all our methods , we even got into a few fights over it because it felt like he was telling me that everything I do with her was wrong , needless to say , it was a tough time for us !

Well ….. it passed !!!!

She has honestly been the best baby in the world the past 5 days ! It has been amazing , she sleeps , she plays , she eats , she smiles , she laughs , she even rolled over today for the first time !

What a relief ! I can honestly say , that every mom going through this must just hang in there , don’t go and change your routine to adapt to it , because it does blow over I promise.

Yay for Paige ! 👏🏻🤣

Angelique

Happy Home

Have you ever heard people say “your baby is happy because she can feel that you as a parent are relaxed”

Well first off , I don’t feel relaxed EVER ! haha , as a first time mom , this whole thing is nerve wracking 🤣

But it is such a huge compliment to hear that , and I do believe it to some extend , babies feed off of their parents , they watch us and they learn from us , being a good example is the very definition of good parenting !

When I was breastfeeding , I struggled so much , with everything , I had baby blues , she would not latch , I second guessing myself around every corner , and she was sooo difficult, looking back now , I think she could sense how stressed and unsure I was about everything !

Isn’t it amazing how with time , it really does get easier ? You hear people say it , but you don’t believe it because its chaos the first few weeks and even months ! But it really does.

Time is an amazing thing ! ❤️

Angelique

Routine | Story of my Life

Babies LOVE routine !

Before I had Paige , I also used to like and even crave some sort of structure in my life and more specifically, in my daily routine !

Somehow , now having a baby , I struggle to get into a day routine with her , I try my best , but life , or my life , is just not always as predictable as we would like it to be !

I would time her first nap for the day and have the whole day planned out , and then boom , its noon and she hasn’t slept yet and I don’t know what happened to half of my day .

See , we live and work in a set up that allows for so many distractions and people in and out our house and running to the lodge quickly or answering a phone because someone else is busy , it seems like small deeds , but when you look at your watch again you missed the “nap window” and have now entered a very dangerous area known as over tiredness and over stimulation 🙈👀 It’s CHAOS !

And even though I know this , somehow it always still creeps up on me !

So , as I am writing this , I am sitting in my baby’s room waiting for her to fall asleep in her cot , and right on time too ! (Yay me)

So heres to having more of a routine !

Angelique

Slippers | Mom Brain

Everyone always talks about pregnancy brain , but mom brain is definitely also a thing !

Motherly instinct for me runs so so deep , it even kind off overtakes all the other parts of my brain too , this type of love is just not normal compared to anything else , it’s overwhelming to say the least .

Take me for example , its winter here in South Africa , and I have literally been wearing my slippers for 4 months because my feet are still fat (yes that is a thing) and I just haven’t though of buying myself some shoes that actually fit , I have been to a mall in this time , but somehow I just end up buying thousands of onesies that Paige will grow out of in a weeks time 🤣

Not to mention the worrying , this is INTENSE ! I worry constantly ; is she warm enough , is she too warm , does she have enough blankets , is the monitor working , is the thermometer working, is she sick , what is that spot, that mark wasn’t there yesterday, why isn’t her hair growing, has she eaten enough, is she eating too much, maybe she is too chubby, is she sleeping enough, why has she been sleeping for so long ?

And the list just goes on and on and on …..

I sometimes find myself wondering ; how the hell am I going to survive the next 18 years ? And the next 18 after that ? I don’t think the worrying will ever end , it is a type of love that moves in into every part of your brain , your heart , your soul , your everything !

💜💜

Angelique

Alone Time | Some Self Reflection

I am someone who loves my alone time , I love to think , to reflect , to pray on things.

I lived alone for 7 years before I moved in with my husband , and even though I thought then that I miss my alone time , nothing prepared me for when I had my baby girl .

Now however, I am pretty sure she KNOWS when I sit down with a cup of tea , she just does ! Haha between her , work and my husband , there is just NO time for me … we don’t live near a town , so day care or nanny is out of the question until she goes to school or we move !

Although I love her to bits , I wish I could see other adults , or go for a coffee ! (For those of you who don’t know my situation , please read the first blog – babysmoo)

I don’t know how I will cope having two … 🙈😂

Angelique