Insecurities – We All Have Baggage

I know we all think that we have recovered from our past , and learned from all the things that we went through as children or even in our twenties , and we always swear that we would never transfer those issues into our marriages or onto our children .

The fact of the matter is , that although we don’t necessarily make the same mistakes as our parents did with us , we still tend to take that baggage into parenthood and our relationships with us.

In my experience I have issues left over from my parent’s divorce and my parents in general , and off course I don’t want my child to go through that disappointment and want to be there for my child no matter what is going on with me personally , I want her to know that she is loved at all times, and that she has a person in any situation- me ! 💜

Unfortunately, I tend to now take this too far , I am so sensitive toward other peoples comments about how I am raising my child , it immediately feels like they are attacking me , and judging me as a mother .

I constantly doubt myself because I am trying so hard to be this perfect mother and to do thing differently with her.

Insecurities start to form this way , and we put them on other people subconsciously, we don’t mean to , but we tend to blame other for past issues.

What is amazing is that we have the power to stop this cycle and break it , to start new and love forward !

Here’s to the future , and to being better and learning and growing with every step we take.

Angelique

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Starting Solids |Butternut For The Win

So I started my baby girl on solids yesterday !

It feels like I have been waiting for this FOREVER ! I was just so excited to start that I couldn’t wait a minute longer ! She is now 5 and a half months old , and showing interest in food and almost sitting by herself.

I just decided to ignore all the controversy on when to start and just following my “mom gut instinct” . 🤪

This is so exciting for me as a new mom , trying new things and learning with my baby about what works best for both me and her !

She was not too impressed yesterday , but today she actually swallowed some of her food , so I see that as a win 🤣

It is all just so amazing to see her grow up and go through all these stages in her life , I am so blessed to be her mother and cant wait to teach her so many things ! She is just such a joy !

Am I the only mom that gets excited about these little moments and documents everything she does ?!

Treasure every moment with your little ones , because as we all know , time gets away from us and we get caught up in the day to day things and forget to take a moment and just appreciate the people that we love .

Angelique

The Great Unknown ….

The past few days I found myself at a loss for words , writers block if you will .

Life just does that sometimes doesn’t it !?

It throws you curveballs that you never saw coming , and it just takes its toll , the past few days I was just tired , no specific reason , just overall exhausted with my life , and I am sure that happens to almost everyone !

We are planning on moving (as some of you know) and our business is in the market , but we don’t know where we will move to and what jobs we will get and maybe even a change of career paths , we don’t know when this will be , its nerve wrecking to say the least , I love change as much as the next person , but its the not knowing that makes me stress so much !

If you know where you are headed , you can prepare yourself mentally and start picturing this new life , because you have all these images to fill in the blanks , with us , its just black (with a very big light at the end of the tunnel off course) and that is so scary , for anyone !

Especially with a family , when I was single , this would be sooo exciting for me , 20 year old me would LOVE this uncertainty, the 27 year old mom me , not so much ! 🤪

If you have a family , you have this need to protect and provide , whether you are the father , the mother , or both to your baby , uncertainty about the future and having an infant just does not go well together , at all !

Motherhood has sure made me into a “worry wart” , but in a good way , I am more responsible , less impulsive , more patient and most of all , I feel like I have calmed down , I am not as rushed and frantic as I used to be ….

All phases in life offers so many lessons to be learnt, if we are open to them ; so I am excited to see what this new journey teaches me about life !

Stay tuned …..

Angelique

Stress || The Silent Killer

I cant speak for everyone , but wow do I stress since Paige was born.

And I mean about EVERYTHING!

It is such a roller coaster some days , why is she not sleeping , she feels warm to me , I have to make food , I have a headache , I am tired , I need to get to work , we are in the process of selling our business , we will have to move soon.

And this is just my life , I know a lot of women have so much going on and so many balls in the air ; that some days you just don’t know how you will get it all done , and at the end of the day , you did , you somehow managed to get most of your things done and you don’t even know how !

To me , thats mom strength! Throughout all the stressing and rushing around , you persevere , and get through it , because at the end of the day you have this little bundle depending on you to do just that – Keep on Keeping on !

How beautiful is that ?

Life just has new meaning ❤️

Angelique

The Next Milestone

Is it just me or are there other moms out there that look forward to the next big thing that their baby will learn to do?

People always tell me “oh you mustn’t wish their life away” – that is not at all what I am doing , I enjoy every phase she goes through , I even appreciate the hard ones, I am just so excited to see how she will be; her personality, what she will like and dislike, the things she will say, giving her, her first food, seeing her sit by herself, crawling, her first steps, her first day of school ….

I get goosebumps just thinking about all these things, because in a sense I am already proud of her for achieving all these things ! 😍👏🏻

I think there is just something so beautiful in being a new parent , a baby smiling for the first time warrants so much excitement in a household, the first time that baby hold a toy , the first time they roll over or bring something to their mouths, a baby brings so much joy to a family.

At this moment, I am counting down the days until I can start giving her her first food … I’ve already decided what to give, how to make it, and what date to start , haha can you tell I am excited ?

I don’t know if this type of excitement for new phases are different with your second child, but I hope not, because it keeps me looking forward to the little things with my baby girl, and to not take the new milestones for granted !

Today I am just so happy to be a mom , and just so so proud of my baby girl for accomplishing all she has already ! 💜🧡❤️

Angelique

Sleeping Consultant

We decided to get a sleeping consultant about a week ago (I did not even know this was a thing) and we have been doing this thing for 5 days now .

Let me just start by saying that it has nothing to do with letting your baby cry it out or any of those things , they analyze your baby’s world and how you do things , and tell you what they think you should do differently in order for everyone to have more sleep.

The past 4 days have been the hardest , I have cried so many times , I lost count , the reason for this being so difficult is that we changed our baby’s routine , which every mother knows is chaos !!

Seeing your baby unhappy is just so so sad , but we made it !!!!! She immediately started sleeping better at night , and today , on day 5 , everything changed for her naps ! I cant believe it is the same baby , and I am just so proud of all of us.

Proud of Paige for pushing through this and learning that sleeping is actually not that bad , and for me for not throwing in the towel (as I wanted to so many times) and for my husband for putting up with all my crying and mood swings this past week !

We are not out of the woods just yet , but our lives have improved so so much , and I honestly recommend this to anyone who is having trouble with their baby’s sleeping habits , its hard , but boy is it worth it !!

Here’s to having our lives back , and having such a happier baby now that she is getting the sleep that she needs to grow and be healthy 👏🏻🎊

For those of you who are interested in contacting a sleeping consultant , visit

https://www.goodnightbaby.co.za/

They work all over the world and you can skype with your consultant !

Angelique

There is Nothing More Beautiful Than Seeing Your Child Smile

A smile from your child is just validation to us that we are not doing too bad !

It means the world when you are down or doubting yourself as a mother , and I know I am not alone , we all feel like we are failing at one point or another .

As our children go through different phases , it brings new challenges with it every time , for me , as a first time mom , every time something new happens , I go , what the hell ? 🤣

Just when you think you got this whole thing down , and you got your routine and your baby is such a dream , boom 💥 growth spurt in your face and everything goes to %#^* ! LOL

Being a mom is honestly the most amazing thing ever , you kind of grow up with your baby , you mature as time goes by because you have to be the strong one , you cant afford to have mood-swings every now and then because your baby feels it (don’t get me wrong , I am only human and I still get pms) but you somehow push it aside and go on with life , because well, you have to , you have a tiny human that depends on you and that deserves to be protected against the outside world for as long as possible !

Angelique