Does Being a Mom Ever Get Easier

Being a first time mom is intense , and I don’t have to tell anyone that ! We all know it !

Now that my baby girl is 5 and a half months old I feel like things are getting easier every day , I think it is mostly because I feel more confident as a mother and I know my baby girl and what she needs when .

But she is also more content and “easier” these days , she is sleeping so much better now after the sleep consultant , she started solids and we are both loving it , she is more active and is enjoying her toys and she is so easy to entertain !

She is definitely teething , and difficult at times but still I feel like I can handle it so much better than that first week at home !

I know that the future will hold so many more unexpected twists and turns and you cannot prepare for all of it , but I feel more comfortable in my own skin and within the relationship between me and my daughter . I already feel like we have such a strong bond and I am enjoying every minute with her.

I see moms with grownup children , and then the answer is clear , you will always worry about your children , being a mom is not a switch that you can turn off once your children go out into the world on their own , you always worry about whether they are okay safe and happy !

And I can already feel all of that just looking at my baby smoo ❤️

Being a mother is the best thing in the world !

Angelique

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Nothing Like a Break to Gain Some Perspective

So yesterday I left my baby with my husband overnight for the first time , this was also my first night away from her !

First of all , he did so well , phoned me with updates all the time and he even handle a crying session alone like a champion , I am just so proud !

I missed her so much , it felt so weird being by myself the first few hours of the drive and I kept obsessing over them being alone at home , and what if she this and what is she thats ……🙈

But then I realized that this was the first time that I have really been by myself , I didn’t have to wash and sterilize ant bottles, I didn’t have to keep an eye on the time for her nap and her feeding. I could just be , I could do what I want and best of all ; take my sweet time doing it 🤫🤪

I went shopping with a friend and even had a few uninterrupted glasses of wine with her , and we chatted for hours , I had a full nights sleep without waking up!

HEAVEN !

On the drive back home today , I couldn’t wait to get back to my family , I couldn’t wait to wash bottles and sterilize them , I couldn’t wait to hold her in my arms and kiss her little feet !

Now I am back home and I feel like I can do it all again , I am thankful for getting to do it all if that makes sense ….

Taking a break from your life is sometimes all you need just to appreciate everything again , recharge relax and get the strength to go on again !

I am just so happy to be home with my family 💜

Angelique

Insecurities – We All Have Baggage

I know we all think that we have recovered from our past , and learned from all the things that we went through as children or even in our twenties , and we always swear that we would never transfer those issues into our marriages or onto our children .

The fact of the matter is , that although we don’t necessarily make the same mistakes as our parents did with us , we still tend to take that baggage into parenthood and our relationships with us.

In my experience I have issues left over from my parent’s divorce and my parents in general , and off course I don’t want my child to go through that disappointment and want to be there for my child no matter what is going on with me personally , I want her to know that she is loved at all times, and that she has a person in any situation- me ! 💜

Unfortunately, I tend to now take this too far , I am so sensitive toward other peoples comments about how I am raising my child , it immediately feels like they are attacking me , and judging me as a mother .

I constantly doubt myself because I am trying so hard to be this perfect mother and to do thing differently with her.

Insecurities start to form this way , and we put them on other people subconsciously, we don’t mean to , but we tend to blame other for past issues.

What is amazing is that we have the power to stop this cycle and break it , to start new and love forward !

Here’s to the future , and to being better and learning and growing with every step we take.

Angelique

Starting Solids |Butternut For The Win

So I started my baby girl on solids yesterday !

It feels like I have been waiting for this FOREVER ! I was just so excited to start that I couldn’t wait a minute longer ! She is now 5 and a half months old , and showing interest in food and almost sitting by herself.

I just decided to ignore all the controversy on when to start and just following my “mom gut instinct” . 🤪

This is so exciting for me as a new mom , trying new things and learning with my baby about what works best for both me and her !

She was not too impressed yesterday , but today she actually swallowed some of her food , so I see that as a win 🤣

It is all just so amazing to see her grow up and go through all these stages in her life , I am so blessed to be her mother and cant wait to teach her so many things ! She is just such a joy !

Am I the only mom that gets excited about these little moments and documents everything she does ?!

Treasure every moment with your little ones , because as we all know , time gets away from us and we get caught up in the day to day things and forget to take a moment and just appreciate the people that we love .

Angelique

The Great Unknown ….

The past few days I found myself at a loss for words , writers block if you will .

Life just does that sometimes doesn’t it !?

It throws you curveballs that you never saw coming , and it just takes its toll , the past few days I was just tired , no specific reason , just overall exhausted with my life , and I am sure that happens to almost everyone !

We are planning on moving (as some of you know) and our business is in the market , but we don’t know where we will move to and what jobs we will get and maybe even a change of career paths , we don’t know when this will be , its nerve wrecking to say the least , I love change as much as the next person , but its the not knowing that makes me stress so much !

If you know where you are headed , you can prepare yourself mentally and start picturing this new life , because you have all these images to fill in the blanks , with us , its just black (with a very big light at the end of the tunnel off course) and that is so scary , for anyone !

Especially with a family , when I was single , this would be sooo exciting for me , 20 year old me would LOVE this uncertainty, the 27 year old mom me , not so much ! 🤪

If you have a family , you have this need to protect and provide , whether you are the father , the mother , or both to your baby , uncertainty about the future and having an infant just does not go well together , at all !

Motherhood has sure made me into a “worry wart” , but in a good way , I am more responsible , less impulsive , more patient and most of all , I feel like I have calmed down , I am not as rushed and frantic as I used to be ….

All phases in life offers so many lessons to be learnt, if we are open to them ; so I am excited to see what this new journey teaches me about life !

Stay tuned …..

Angelique

Stress || The Silent Killer

I cant speak for everyone , but wow do I stress since Paige was born.

And I mean about EVERYTHING!

It is such a roller coaster some days , why is she not sleeping , she feels warm to me , I have to make food , I have a headache , I am tired , I need to get to work , we are in the process of selling our business , we will have to move soon.

And this is just my life , I know a lot of women have so much going on and so many balls in the air ; that some days you just don’t know how you will get it all done , and at the end of the day , you did , you somehow managed to get most of your things done and you don’t even know how !

To me , thats mom strength! Throughout all the stressing and rushing around , you persevere , and get through it , because at the end of the day you have this little bundle depending on you to do just that – Keep on Keeping on !

How beautiful is that ?

Life just has new meaning ❤️

Angelique

The Next Milestone

Is it just me or are there other moms out there that look forward to the next big thing that their baby will learn to do?

People always tell me “oh you mustn’t wish their life away” – that is not at all what I am doing , I enjoy every phase she goes through , I even appreciate the hard ones, I am just so excited to see how she will be; her personality, what she will like and dislike, the things she will say, giving her, her first food, seeing her sit by herself, crawling, her first steps, her first day of school ….

I get goosebumps just thinking about all these things, because in a sense I am already proud of her for achieving all these things ! 😍👏🏻

I think there is just something so beautiful in being a new parent , a baby smiling for the first time warrants so much excitement in a household, the first time that baby hold a toy , the first time they roll over or bring something to their mouths, a baby brings so much joy to a family.

At this moment, I am counting down the days until I can start giving her her first food … I’ve already decided what to give, how to make it, and what date to start , haha can you tell I am excited ?

I don’t know if this type of excitement for new phases are different with your second child, but I hope not, because it keeps me looking forward to the little things with my baby girl, and to not take the new milestones for granted !

Today I am just so happy to be a mom , and just so so proud of my baby girl for accomplishing all she has already ! 💜🧡❤️

Angelique