I stay at home with my baby girl, and yesterday it was midday and I glanced at myself in the mirror for the first time that day… and cringed! – What!? Is that really what I look like !

I had a C-Section, and needless to say; my tummy looks and feels horrible. It does not even feel like it is attached to my body some days. In the beginning, after the surgery, I could handle it because it would get better with time, now, 7 months later, it has gotten better but I HATE my body !

It has gotten so bad that it is actually affecting my marriage, and just everything really, clothes shopping is something that I used to LOVE, now I dread it! I even get dressed in the bathroom so that my husband does not see me naked in the light. I know this might seem extreme to some, and it definitely does to my husband (who bless him, still thinks I am gorgeous), but I just don’t feel good about myself.

Isn’t it weird how we can be our own worst critics? No one is harder on someone than you with yourself, on the one hand its good because you should push yourself to be better, but sometimes (like in my case) it becomes a sort of obsession, obsession to look like that woman on TV that your husband stared at, obsession to think that people who walk pass you think “wow she is fat”. When in reality , they don’t even notice you, they are busy battling their own insecurities.

At the end of the day, you always have a decision, I can either hate my body and wallow in self pity, or I can try to do something about it, exercise a little eat a bit healthier, even if the results are not miraculous or amazing, just trying would also make me feel a bit better.

So here is to being happier, and healthier.

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5 thoughts on “Motherhood is far from glam

  1. Thanks for your honesty. It does take a while to feel back to normal. I have twins, one came out vaginally and the other decided she wanted to be dickered via csection. Although my twins are older now, but it took a while for my stomach to heal and I few normal. But you’ll get there! You’re hubby is such an awesome man. My hunny was the same way. Extremely supportive

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  2. My wife had three c-sections, she’s felt some of the same issues! She sometimes thought I would want someone else, but to me it never mattered; my love never came with conditions. Our kids are all adults now, and she’s still the love of my life; I pray the same for you! #Happier And Healthier!

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