I love sleep, before I was pregnant i would sleep in till about 10 am on weekends easily !
Obviously that has changed since my baby girl was born .. her name is Paige by the way.
She sleeps well enough at night compared to other stories I have heard, and my husband really does help a lot, yet I am still tired, like all the time, why is that ?
She takes cat naps during the day , for like 10 mins, 15 if we are having a good day , and at night about 5-6 hours the first stretch before drinking her milk. Now , when i tell this to people they go “at least she sleeps at night” – which is so true I know , but hold on a second…. shes 3 months old, which means she cant do much by herself just yet and needs constant stimulation, so that means that I hardly ever get time to do anything around the house or for myself or work wise ( I manage a lodge).
Its exhausting, you tend to forget about yourself in the process because you have this tiny human to look after and to “entertain” between cat naps.
I sometimes glance at myself in the mirror as i walk passed and realize that i haven’t even brushed my hair or teeth for that matter.
Even as I am typing this I am doing so one handed and rocking her pram with the other hand , just hoping that she will maybe have a nap so that i can correct all my spelling mistakes in here 😛
There we go , she’s asleep ! yay 😛
Where were we, oh yes ! see, the lack of sleep even makes me forgetful and makes it hard to concentrate on anything , there is only so much coffee you cant drink (trust me I have tried)
I am so glad i started this blog, I would recommend it for any mother who loves writing and reading, even if no one reads it, its an outlet, a diary of sorts, a place to plot down your feelings and thoughts and frustrations without being judged and scolded for it by your family or friends (I sometimes even feel like my dog is judging me for the things I think and feel sometime) .
If any of you are reading this and have ever felt the same way .. give me a shout !
ps. pic of my baby girl just to show how worth it this all is